As the title hints, this post is probably going to ramble. Oh well.
Today and well, lately in general, I feel extremely vulnerable… I feel like I’m sitting still and the world is swirling around me and I am weak and exposed….
“In Christ alone, my hope is found, he is my light, my STRENGTH, my song… This cornerstone, this solid ground…”
I know that my strength is found in the Lord.
But right now, I feel like I am lost… Like I cant get my prayers through… Like every single time I say a prayer.. it hits 2 feet above me and bounces right back.
I don’t really know what to do about this except to keep praying, and keep holding on to faith that God is in control and that no matter what happens, he has my best interest in mind.
As I’ve said in other blogs, I feel like sometimes I give my problems to God, and then I still worry about them. Which is just like giving them to God and then taking them back… Which is pretty typical of me. I worry more than the average person. I worry when life is going to smooth, I worry about everything… now a few moths ago I posted about how I wasn’t worrying anymore and how God had delivered me from that, but I got right back into it when I stopped walking as strongly in God as I had been.
Now I’m right back where I started. I’m worrying. I’m praying, and I’m asking God to help me… and he does, over and over and again and again God helps me. I’m facing a lot right now. I’m vulnerable and confused, and I need some guidance, and I need a lot of help making the right decisions for the future. I feel like I’m at a crossroads right now and there are 3 ways to go. But which one to choose. I thought that escaping to the beach would give me some answers but it didn’t. At all. So friends… remember me in your prayers as you are in mine….
Peace and Love <3,